Thank for your input. I agree what you said. I do want to have some "faith" or "home" as it mentioned. But I am a person who is very rational and who is always questioning and thinking. I may accept something for a short while, then I have different opinion about it soon. And I could not find some really satisfied answer for my 'spirituality'. e.g. I like a lot of good things about 'being Christian", but I really do not like that "Christians usually tend to server their own brothers and sisters". And once people of one religion, once they choose 'a god', then they ignore all the others. No one really knows who is the "real god' , are those Christians’ god' is a real god, people in the other religions are believing a 'fake god', who knows? I found they are too complicated ... .. I do not know! Why god gave me a head that makes me always think, the more I think, it seems the more I am sruggling! sigh!