In that way, you will be the person he loves most. However, you ruined his life now. He does not feel very comfortable with a person has "可这姑娘并不简单,意识到我的存在后,设法瞒着他与我对话,想让我离开,直到知道我怀孕且打算生下了时,才愤然退婚" you have so many tricks to play.
Even you got married with him, you probably would find there are many conflicts in your life style and his. You guys are not compatable.
I think you are lucky. IYou had 4 years good time with him. After 4 years he lost everything, but you still have yourself, your family and your friends.
Don't think "我怎么办? 我也不能没有他。我努力想重建我们的爱,却不知明天如何。" He is very weak and does not deserve your love. Most important I think he is scary of you now.
Even you got married with him, you probably would find there are many conflicts in your life style and his. You guys are not compatable.
I think you are lucky. IYou had 4 years good time with him. After 4 years he lost everything, but you still have yourself, your family and your friends.
Don't think "我怎么办? 我也不能没有他。我努力想重建我们的爱,却不知明天如何。" He is very weak and does not deserve your love. Most important I think he is scary of you now.